A terrible make up session

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As a journalist I have been in front and behind of the camera and I have never feel comfortable with the cameras pointing at me. I choose being a writer precisely because of that, and because I think I express myself better writing than speaking.

In front of a camera I feel ridiculous and insecure.

I have to confess one thing: I remember the first time they invited me to do an interview in a local TV station I said yes immediately, excited not because I was going to appear in TV, but because I was going to have a make up session with a professional first time in my life! I was very young and I have seen one of my friends on TV completely changed and beautiful with the make up work they did with her. So I thought it would be the same with me, and I would feel more secure behind that mask. I didn’t use to make up myself so it was an adventure to me. But when I saw myself with the exaggerated and recharged make up on me I get terrified and I went to the interview not insecure, but absolutely scared. Everybody told me I looked beautiful and photogenic. But after all, what would the people who love you tell you about how you look on TV but that you were gorgeous and smart and the best?. I can only laugh at me when I see pictures from that old interview remembering how terrified I was. I learn to think twice before accept another invitation.

Cameras intimidate me. In front of a camera I feel ridiculous, with or without make up. I rather stay behind.

Maybe is because I am ridiculous to look at or to listen at. I don’t like the idea of thousands of people looking at me. I’m not a good orator. I prefer to talk with people freely without intimidation and then, at the secret of my office and my computer, write with enough time to think about what I’m doing, and without a make up.

Daily Prompt: Tables Turned.

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Author: Olga Brajnović

Journalist and writer. I've worked for 26 years in a newspaper in Spain. I worked for two years as a stringer and correspondent in the US and went as a special envoy to other places like the Balkans. Author of a biography. Sea lover. Avid reader. Classic Music enthusiast.

6 thoughts on “A terrible make up session

  1. Twisted Muses says:

    I always think that people who are in front of the camera have all the confidence in the world. Confidence that I just don’t have. It’s cool that you’ve opened up about this here. Thank you for sharing your story! – Kat

    Reply
    1. Olga Brajnović says:

      you’re welcome. Thank you for reading and commenting.

      Reply
  2. Borneo Rainbow says:

    I love your writing. You wrote with all honesty. You only do things, which you consider you could best. How many times have we lied to ourselves, which ended in disaster?

    Reply
    1. Olga Brajnović says:

      Thank you for your comment. What you said about lie to oneself and to others is true. A road to disaster. Life teaches

      Reply

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