You wake up one day and realize you’re ten years older than you were the previous night. Beyond the initial shock, how does this development change your life plans?

I’ll be deeply saddened, because now a great deal of my life consist in take care of my elderly mom and she will be dead by then. Also because I’ll lose ten wonderful years of my life.

Because of my illness there were months of my life that passed like if I wouldn’t live them. I know by experience how is the sensation to wake up one morning as from a long dream and feel that I’m suddenly older, that I’ve lost my precious time for ever without noticing. Waking up is good, but realising the lost it’s so sad. It’s awful. I felt empty.

I learned to live in the present. As a saint said, is the best thing to do: try to be good today, without thinking in yesterday that already passed nor in tomorrow that you don’t know if will come for you.

Just to answer to the prompt. With ten more years I’ll be old enough to be retired and if God gives me health I’ll try to write a book I can’t write now because of lack of time. I would like to play piano but my arthritis makes it each day more difficult. I would like to travel but I’m realistic and I know I’m not going to have enough money to do that, because of the meager retirement wages.

So I guess I’ll have a calm life, but saddened, asking myself what happened with the last ten years of my life.

New Wrinkles.


Author: Olga Brajnović

Journalist and writer. I've worked for 26 years in a newspaper in Spain. I worked for two years as a stringer and correspondent in the US and went as a special envoy to other places like the Balkans. Author of a biography. Sea lover. Avid reader. Classic Music enthusiast.

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