Loneliness

We all feel down from time to time. How do you combat the blues? What’s one tip you can share with others that always helps to lift your spirits?

When I feel down there is nothing that can possibly lift me up. I’ve tried everything: music, relaxation, exercise, think in positive. All the advices doctors and psychologists have given me to fight my depression. No results. When you’re deeply depressed there is no way to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Think in positive! I wonder how can possibly a person drowned in deep depression think in positive.

When I’m down I feel worthless, paralysed, immensely sad, without the energy to react. I only want to be alone. I hate people around me giving me advices or, worst, lecturing me. Even a silent company is unbearable. Loneliness is the best friend. Not recommended by the specialists.

Being alone I can cry without any apparent reason and I don’t have to give explanations to others. I hate bothering my friends or my family with my unexplainable sadness. Above all I hate being watched by strangers when I’m overwhelmed by sorrow. But loneliness is not always possible. Above all when you have people who loves you. And that’s good, but its also difficult. So I have to share my sadness with my loved ones and see how they get worried about me, which makes me saddest.

Usually depression leaves you so weak and exhausted that you can’t escape to be alone having a walk or a run. If I could move I would go to have a walk on the beach, to pour my sadness into the immensity of the sea. Stop thinking and begin to focus in feeling the breeze, listening to the sound of the waves crashing into the shore while contemplating the sunset. Leave the time pass smoothly, like water through my fingers. But that’s not possible, and I only can pray, take my medication and wait for the crisis to pass.

via Daily Prompt: Singing the Blues.