I’m sad

When was the last time you really wanted (or needed) to say something, but kept quiet? Write a post about what you should’ve said.

I’m sad today. This post is also sad.

Sometimes keep quiet is the best thing you can do. As a reporter, I had to protect the confidentiality of my sources. They had to feel safe with me. So I’d never repented to keep quiet when was needed.

Sometimes one doesn’t know if it’s time to talk or to remain silent. I had a very good friend with a strong temperament. We had an argument. Suddenly she fell ill and in two days she was in the ICU in critical condition. My sister worked at the hospital and they allowed me to visit her at the ICU. She was unconscious, but I noticed that when I talked to her, she reacted. It seemed that she was fighting against the respirator, trying to communicate. It was anguishing. So I said: Shh, quiet, quiet… till she calmed. I didn’t dare to say a word after that.  That night, she died. I never told her that I didn’t mean to argue with her, that she was my best friend, that I was praying for her. I was really sad. Later I understood that it didn’t matter. I did what my heart told me. And she probably knows now what my feelings were then.

Break the Silence.

10 thoughts on “I’m sad”

    1. Olga Brajnović says:

      It is. Maybe I shouldn’t write it

      Reply
      1. Scott says:

        I didn’t mean you shouldn’t address it. It seems to me that venting is the best way to put this burden behind you, and this may be the best place to do that. You may have already said enough to lay the burden aside. I don’t think it’s healthy for you to lock this up inside you.

        Reply
    1. Olga Brajnović says:

      Thanks Judy. I like to think so.

      Reply
  4. Cris says:

    Very touching. Very inspiring.Very real. God bless you, Olga. Thanks for dropping by.

    Reply

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